As long as I can remember, I have always felt different. I was conditioned as a child to mind my manners, keep my opinions to myself, and do as I was told. I lacked confidence and self-esteem.
A significant memory I have of myself is when I was about 6 years old. I was playing on the playground near a swing set at elementary school by myself. I was being taunted by some of the other children because I had silver caps on all of my teeth. I can see the dress I am wearing and the way my blond hair flipped up on the ends. I seldom smiled and would keep my head tucked down. This image continues to surface in my consciousness. I acknowledge that this little girl will always remain with me as she is a part of who I am.
I recognize that being the new kid at school on numerous occasions played a contributing role with my confidence issues. I was the quiet smart kid who liked to read. To fit in with others, I learned to listen and observe. I learned to think before speaking. Although I did have a few friends, I still felt alone most of the time.
Fast forward many years, I found my voice and realized that what I say does matter. I began acknowledging the guidance that I had been receiving all along. I now know that I was never truly alone. Reflecting on those years, perhaps I was special rather than different. As I began connecting to my soul, I awakened to the truth of who I am. Choosing to change my perception of the experiences I had, I inevitably shift the energy of those experiences.
I realize now that all of my challenges and triumphs were actually opportunities for learning and growth. I actually planned each and every one of them prior to this incarnation so that I could be the person that I am today. With that being said, I believe that all is as it should be in each and every moment.
Affirm ~ My heart overflows with gratitude and joy. I am conscious of being present in this moment. I recognize the guidance I will be receiving. I am allowing myself to simply breathe. I acknowledge and appreciate that I am not alone for my angels and guides are with me always.
