Open your heart – open it wide; someone is standing outside. ~ Mary Engelbreit
Since releasing my book, Journey into Consciousness, I have had an enormous amount of emotions arise within me. Part of these emotions were my own vulnerability while others were the emotions I felt because of the reactions expressed by others either verbally or as reviews left on Amazon.com. Believe me when I say that it took an extreme amount of courage for me to share the experiences I did as I tend to be a private person. I acknowledged that the memories and experiences I shared were solely based on my perception. I recognize that other individuals will have different memories and/or perception of the same experiences we shared.
With that being said, I’m honoring the opportunities for learning and growth and seeing these experiences from a Higher perspective although my human-ness is a bit confused. I recently spent a few days in Eureka Springs, Arkansas to work and also utilized the time there as a retreat for myself as well. I woke up Monday morning to a “hurting heart” that began with a hurting knee when I walked into a bench at the end of the bed in the dark. I was blessed with a massage that morning and then spent several hours at Suchness Spa, which was a Birthday and Christmas gift from my son.
I’ve known Cat, spa director and creator of the Suchness Healing Spa Rituals®, since 1999, and she has assisted me greatly on my spiritual journey. Once again, she was here to help me heal the hurts in my heart. After finishing the session, she suggested that I light a white 3-wick candle and say a blessing. I couldn’t work the lighter and was getting very frustrated. After lighting two of the three wicks, she took my hand and said the Universe is offering you a sign – you need to have patience. Her gentle and soothing voice expressing words of wisdom to me released the emotions I have kept intact for a while. The tears flowed and my heart busted open. She asked if I had anyone to talk to, and I acknowledged that I did.
Returning to my room, I spoke with two of my close friends on the phone. They listened to me while honoring where I was in that moment. Rather than telling me what I wanted to hear, they told me what I needed to hear. I spoke at the Eureka Springs Metaphysical Gathering Monday evening about my spiritual journey, recent experiences and then offered messages to those in attendance. The night was powerful and transformative. Returning back to my room, my heart busted open once again so I reached out to another dear friend who once again spoke the words I needed to hear in that moment. The gist of his message was “stop trying to force things to happen.”
I woke up early Tuesday morning to a lady bug crawling on my shoulder. I have an affinity for ladybugs and recognize this as a powerful message from Spirit especially since one was crawling on me. According to Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak Pocket Guide, ladybug indicates wish fulfilled. It states, “Wish will be fulfilled soon. Do not push too hard or it will be delayed. Allow efforts to unfold and manifest in the time best for us.”
Returning home, I was awakened at 7:55 am both Wednesday and Thursday morning. According to Doreen Virtue’s Angel Numbers 101, 755 means “You are going through major life changes, which are bringing great blessings into your life.” In addition, I received clarity on many levels. In our relationships with others, we have the tendency to take things personally when we shouldn’t or we try to control aspects of the relationship. My guides offered me these powerful words to use, “I surrender and release to Spirit my relationship with ___________ (fill in the blank) and will allow it to unfold as it should.”
The people who come into our life are there for a reason. Rather than trying to analyze why they are there, I believe it’s important for each one of us to trust that their presence is necessary for the time. I am thankful for those individuals who are in my life to support me, encourage me and tell me what I need to hear even when it’s hard to process. I acknowledge your presence in my life, value our friendship and love you. I am lucky to have you (and you know who you are)!